Im Always Up For A Challenge.

30 Days, here we go!

Picture of yourself with ten facts:
1. I love photography, it has been an outlet for me for several years. I dont know what I would do without it. It is how I express myself.

2. My dogs are my babies. They are spoiled. They will always be allowed to sleep in my bed. I love making them happy, because they do the same for me.

3. Just because I dont go to church, doesnt mean I dont believe in God. I have a good relationship with him. I dont need to justify anything I do to anyone besides Him.

4. I have extremely high expectations for my life, and what I do with myself. I want to be famous. I want to be remembered long after I am gone.

5. I love my brothers. They have become a very important part of my life. If I didnt have them I dont know where I would be. They protect me. I can go to them about anything. I waited a long time for the relationship that we have.

6. I love my mom. We dont always get along, but if I need something in fifteen minutes, she gets it to me in ten. She does the best that she can do with me. I am difficult. But I got that from her.

7. I am a great friend. If you call me at two in the morning and you need me, I am there. No questions asked. If you are one of my friends, you know the dedication that I have to you, and you know that you are the family that I chose.

8. I am diabetic. I hate it. Every single second of it. I cant wait for a cure. I will be first in line. Mark my words.

9. I am extremely insecure about myself because of the things that I went through in school. I put on a tough face. Doesnt mean I am always that tough.

10. I dont do anything I dont want to do. Im not influenced by people. If I make a choice, its because I wanted to do it. Id rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.

Why The Long Face.

I am a city girl. Born and raised around concrete buildings. I like my animals, dont get me wrong, but when an animal has the power to crush me, kick me, buck me, or hurt me, I tend to do my best to stay away from them. I have been on a few horses in my day. And by a few I mean literally two. One time in which I rode on the back of a horse with my sister in law Raelene, because I got scared and couldnt ride my own horse. So I dont have very much experience. Tonight I got to ride another horse, Buddy. Darian has been trying to get me to ride him for a while now, telling me that he is a really good horse and that there is nothing that I should worry about, she knows her horse. I often hear this from people, "Oh trust me, I got this," but it is not very often that I actually put my guard down and trust them. I am glad that I did this with Darian. Buddy was a blast, and watching her take care of him reminded me what it is like to throw yourself into something you truly love. The happiest people dont have the best of everything, they make the best of everything they have. And this girl lights up when she is with her boy. I loved seeing someone be so passionate about something again, seeing a genuine smile come across her face as she saddled him up and rode him around. This girl, has a great horse. Enjoy.

Trains, Turtles, and Three Year Olds.

I have been really busy lately, hence the lack of new posts. But today I decided to slow down for a bit. I built train tracks with my nephew Reagan, made Emeryck giggle at a toy turtle, and enjoyed the both of them laughing at each others laughs. I miss the days where there were no worries, no stress, no thought of what tomorrow would bring. Reagan is at such an innocent age that even if I come over and I am red in the face with red puffy eyes, he just reaches up, gives me a hug, and asks if I want to build trains with him. Nothing seems to ever be wrong in his world. There is no bigger issue in his life than what shape he wants his train to go in. I think that I could learn a thing or two from him and his pure happiness. Its not about the destination, its about how you got there. I needed his smile today. I love you Reagan, and Emeryck. Thank you for being the light in what seems to be a very dark time in my life. Enjoy.